Like Charles Bukowski I was gifted with a shitty life, a shitty-beautiful-ugly-gargantuan-microscopic-macro-orgasmic-nanotech-bi o-tech-post-trans-human-is-m-apocalypse-Apollo-eclipse-
for which I am
I had the good fortune of being hit on the head a number of times early in life, starting with the da-da-da-da-da-boom incident on Essex St. across from Swampscott Cemetery-
Yes, I consider myself lucky to have experienced a few undiagnosed concussions in the age of concussion-syndrome oblivion. These blows were secretly (sacredly) by design, as are all the event$ in my life, and in yours too.
How do I know? I just do. It’s obvious to me, plain as day, as it should be to all.
My strong suspicion is that these blows helped to jog my deeper, ancestral, astral-memory of eternal self and put me on an inevitable collision-course with the psychic territory of the ancient psychoactive plant-mind, the ancient Gnosis and the psychology of Jung and the mythological-studies of thinkers like professor Joseph Campbell, not to mention put me into contact with the world of emotional turmoil, now a known effect of concussions, especially in the already turbulent period of adolescence. Each and eve-ry experience has been right on schedule, exactly as it was de-signed and programmed to happen in this virtual bio-simulation experiential free-will experiment we call
(X-is-tense/ Y / why / sentence/ exit-dense/ ou-ter-density).
It seems every day I am more grateful for just being me, still somehow with my wits about me now here, nowhere,
grateful not to be you,
but to be me- see / c / sea ?
you are the ‘not me’
the other side of me
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